Fic: All The Rest Part 3

[mrsmarit.livejournal.com]

Title: All The Rest Part 3

Author: mrsmarit

Rating: PG

Pairing: Shaun/Zach

Disclaimer: The characters are not mine, only the words

Words: 1119

The saga contunes from the first kiss until right before the "first time." I want to take this chance to thank everyone who has taken the time to read my works and make such nice comments. Thank you for reading and I hope you continue to enjoy them.

 

 

The next morning dawns and Zach comes into consciousness and turns to see Shaun curled up in a ball with his back to Zach. Gazing down at Shaun Zach wants nothing more than to reach down and touch Shaun, to connect with him in the way that he has wanted for so very long. Then thoughts of what everyone would think flood his mind and he freaks  out wondering what others would think, he gathers his things muttering “Shit Shit Shit” under his breath all the way to his car where he hops in and escapes, or at least tries to escape from the turmoil raging inside of him. At a stop light lost in his own thoughts he doesn’t even notice when the light changes until someone honks at him and he snaps out of his revive and continues to drive home.

Zach gets home, hops out and goes in the front door. Jeanne is waiting for him giving him one of her patented death glares. “Where were you” she asks in her own special Jeanne way (aka her bitch tone) and Zach responds equally snarky “Surfing, what the fuck” She glares at him one more time, calls for Cody and they head out. In the car on the way to the Oceanette Zach mentions that he is thinking of reapplying to Cal Arts. Jeanne being Jeanne asks why, they turned him down (if she only knew) and why would he want to go through that again. Cody pipes up and asks what that is and Zach answers that it is a school. Jeanne tells Zach not to get his hopes up, she doesn’t want him getting all depressed that things are tough right now (no shit Jeanne he thinks).

He pulls up to the Oceanette and Jeanne hops out and Zach notices Tori at her car, he heads over says hi and then leans in and kisses her; trying to make himself feel for her the way he felt with Shaun last night. She pulls away stating she is late, Zach despondently heads back to the car and takes Cody over to his friend Brian’s house for his play date. Zach heads to the beach, to clear his head and get in some much needed surfing before he has to go back and retrieve Cody. He parks the car and heads to the back to get into his suit. As he is getting into it he glances to his right and notices a guy a few cars over staring at him (and not in a hey nice car or board kind of way) and Zach can’t help but stare back a little before he realizes what he is doing and quickly turns away.

Back home Zach is taking a shower when Jeanne comes into the bathroom. She asks him about Shaun, about all the time they have been spending together. Jeanne asks Zach if the knows about Shaun, that he is gay. Zach’s response is that they have been surfing together since he was 8 so what’s the big deal. Her answer is that she doesn’t know if that is someone Zach should be hanging around with all day half naked, and then also throws in that she doesn’t want Cody around that. She heads out as Zach stares into the mirror, and Jeanne pokes her head back in and asks the question, the question that Zach cannot answer “You’re not a fag are you”. “What do you think?” he answers. I don’t think I could deal with that she says as she finally leaves and Zach goes back to staring in the mirror realizing that he didn’t really answer Jeanne’s question and unsure how he would have answered if she had pressed him on the issue.

The next day Zach gets Cody and Tori to head to the beach for some much needed together time with her and Cody just having fun. Tori the girl that he loves and wants to spend his life with and the feelings for Shaun that he has aren’t real. They can’t be he thinks. The three of them head to the beach where Cody begins to build a sandcastle. Zach is lounging on the back of the Jimmy when Shaun walks up. Tori introduces Shaun to Cody, as Shaun walks down to say hi to Cody Zach watches him walk away (thinking to himself what the hell is he wearing, how old is that wetsuit? And trying not to notice how is fits on Shaun’s body the way it hugs his….) Zach shakes his head to clear his thoughts as Shaun leans down to help Cody with this sandcastle. Remembering what Jeanne said about Cody being around Shaun he makes sounds to leave but Tori interrupts and asks Shaun to keep an eye on Cody so they can talk. Shaun agrees and Tori drags Zach over to one of the closed lifeguard stations.

Tori asks him about them, about where their relationship is going. She states that she can’t keep doing this, that if they are really over she is going to move on. He agrees angrily and heads back to where Shaun and Cody are still working on the sandcastle. Zach tells Cody it is time to leave but Cody wants to destroy the sandcastle but Zach just wants to run, run away from the turmoil inside of him. Shaun mentions that the surf is going to get it anyway so Zach agrees and Cody and Shaun start to jump up and down, destroying the castle and looking happy and carefree. Tori grabs Cody and gets him into the car while Shaun walks up to Zach and states he wants to talk to him about the other night. Zach brushes him off and takes a step back. Shaun then goes on about Zach is really talented and he shouldn’t give up on his dreams. Zach looks at Shaun turns away with a dismissive “Late” and heads out.

Zach pulls up in front of Tori’s house, she hops out and he says he’ll call her. She slams the door angrily (what the hell is that about he wonders) and as she walks up to her house he peels out and heads home. After putting Cody down for the night, making sure Jeanne is passed out in bed he heads up to the roof, to his sanctuary to try and get all of the confusing thoughts and feeling that he doesn’t want to acknowledge. He walks back and forth a few times, smacking at a can of spray paint and then sits down on his stool fidgeting nervously. Finally he comes to a decision, zips up his sweatshirt and heads out.

Comments

[yana-ambf.livejournal.com]

Very nice chapter. My favorite part of this piece is Zach's thoughts as he kisses Tori outside the Oceanette, trying to make himself feel for her the way he felt with Shaun last night. He so clearly is trying to recreate with Tori that undeniable spark he felt with Shaun, but it's just not happening--for either of them. He's probably never kissed Tori like that before in his life; it seems she was quite aware of what a front that all was.

Can't wait for more.

[mrsmarit.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the kind words yet again. I think Zach truly loves Tori just not in the way that he should. To me the on and off again thing with them was a sign that Zach chose to ignore until he reconnected with Shaun. I could never figure out why Tori stuck around, did she think things would change... hmmm maybe there's an idea for a new piece :)

[yana-ambf.livejournal.com]

Oh yes, that is def. a good idea for a fic. :) You can't help but wonder what Tori was thinking all that time. She might have thought, with each break-up, that just maybe things might be different this time, that her sort of distant (and probably sexually disinterested) boyfriend might come around and start acting like the other guys her age, but alas...

Anxiously awaiting your Tori fic. hehe ;-)

[mrsmarit.livejournal.com]

Yeah I think a fic from Tori's pov would be interesting since we really don't see her much throughout the film but her character is so critical to Zach. I will have to add that to the list along with the current Zach/Shaun pairing I am trying to finish up and the one I started from Cody's pov 10 years after the movie had ended.

Looks like I am going to be busy for a while.

[girloftheburbs.livejournal.com]

I liked your insight about Zach trying to feel for Tori what he really feels for Shaun. It made me realize that Zach is getting grief from all sides, isn't he? Everyone is forcing him to confront his feelings, and he's just not ready for that yet. Good chapter. Can't wait to read the next scene. ;)

[mrsmarit.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the words of encouragement. Yeah I always felt Zach was getting it from all sides with Jeanne, Tori and even Gabe a little. The only ones who didn't pressure him were Shaun and Cody and truthfully those are the 2 people who mattered the most.