Fic: Happy Together
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shelter_dinerTitle: Happy Together
Author: jrb1986
Rating: R (Strong language)
Pairing/Characters: Zach/Shaun, Gabe, Cody, Zach’s Father. Jeannie and Tori are mentioned briefly.
Notes/Warnings: This story takes place about a year and a half after the film, but before my fics “Sick & Tired (Part I),” “The Proposal (Part II),” “The Commitment (Part III),” and “Surprise.” This is a slice of life fic, about Zach and Shaun’s life together. I also wrote this in first-person, like my previous fic “What I Want” to show how much of a difference has happened to Zach after the events of the film. There’s some angst here (Zach comes out to his dad, and Prop 8 happens.) But, there’s also lots of Zach/Shaun loving going on here too. Feedback rocks my world. J I unfortunately don’t own “Shelter,” nor Zach & Shaun (although I really wish I could. I love those boys!), nor Gabe, nor Cody. I’m just borrowing them for awhile, and I promise to return them good as new. Enjoy!
Happy:
Sometimes I can’t believe it. Hell, I even pinch myself occasionally just to check. If I had known that morning when I was just going to wax my surfboard that my entire life would change, I would have been more prepared for what was about to happen. But knowing me, I probably would have been too scared to go after it. Am I being philosophical now or some shit? Jesus, love does crazy things to me. Whatever, it’s cool. Lately whenever I make an intelligent observation about something, Shaun just looks and smiles at me, then kisses my forehead. “Kissing my big beautiful brain” he calls it when he does that. God, I love that man.
Daily Routine:
On today’s checklist, let’s see. Cody has to be dropped off at school, I then have to go to class, pick-up Cody from school, and come home. Nothing out of the ordinary. Shaun’ll be home all day writing his book which he won’t let me read yet. That’s okay, I’m overly protective about my artwork, so it’s cool. What would be good for dinner tonight? Cody’ll wanna stop by McDonald’s like he does everyday. I hate telling him no, but he can’t live on McDonald’s everyday. Shaun and I limit him going there to once a month, which I think is fair. Maybe Mac and cheese will be okay. Cody likes that. I’ll think about that later.
Humming:
I notice that I seem to be humming a lot more lately. I never really used to hum before. Guess that means I’m happy. Well, everybody knows I’m happy. It’s not like it’s a secret. God, I’m even humming while scrubbing the fucking toilet! I’m sure the schmaltz police will be coming for me soon.
Gabe:
I met up with Gabe today. That went pretty well. I’ve really missed Gabe a lot these last few months. It’s still a bit odd to hang out with him sometimes. He says he’s thrilled and happy for me and Shaun, but part of me thinks he still finds it a little bit weird. Maybe I’m just projecting that onto him. That’s really not fair of me to do. He says he’s thrilled, so I’ll take that at face value. Besides, he did go right back to talking about how much pussy he’s gonna get this weekend, so I think we’re cool. He only acts vulgar when everything’s cool.
Movie Night:
Tonight was pretty great. We watched that movie “Latter Days.” I loved that too. I really liked the mushy romance of it. Jesus, normally I hate romance movies. Maybe I could relate to it more or something? Makes sense. Or maybe it had a lot to do with Shaun sitting there holding me. That’s a high possibility. Makes me remember when we watched “Brokeback Mountain” for the first time together. I do like that “Latter Days” didn’t have a tragic ending, however. I wish they’d make more gay movies like that. One about gay surfers would be way cool. Anyway, after the movie rocked too. One of those fantastic nights where we fucked each other’s brains out and loved every second of it.
Zach Comes Out To His Dad:
“Shaun, it’s just something I feel I really should do.” “Okay, Zach. Knowing your dad though, it’s gonna be rough. But I’ll be right there in the next room if you need support, okay babe.” I’ve decided to tell my dad about Shaun and I today. God, why the fuck did I put this off for so long?! I can barely dial the phone, my hands are shaking so badly. “Hello?” Shit, he sounds pissed already. “Dad? Hi, it’s Zach.” “What? Do you want something?” Nice guy, he can be such a jerk sometimes. “Yeah, how’s everything going, dad? You doing okay?” “Fine Zach. What did you really call me for?” Here we go. “Dad, I have something I really wanna tell you. You know how I moved here to Los Angeles with Shaun, right. Well, it wasn’t just to be roommates. Shaun and I are……..” Say it already Zach! It’ll be okay, just spit it out! “We’re dating, Dad.” “What?! Are you telling me you’re a fag?! Is that what you’re telling me?!” “I prefer to be called gay, dad. Well, I prefer to be called Zach, dad. But yeah, that’s what I’m telling you. I’m in love with Shaun, dad, and yeah, I’m gay.” “How the fuck are two fucking fairies gonna raise my grandson? Tell me that.” “You know what, dad. Us two quote-on-quote “fairies” are gonna do a hell of a better job than Jeanne ever did. You and I both know that.” “But the kids gonna turn into a faggot too. You’re being selfish, you know.” “Excuse me?! I’M being selfish?! Even if Cody does turn out to be gay one day, at least he’ll live in a house where he’ll be loved for who he is no matter what. Wish I could say the same.” “What is that supposed to mean? I mean, you slam me with this, and you expect me to like it?!” “You don’t have to like it dad, but I expect you to respect it. Because, I gave and gave and gave and gave to you and Jeanne when mom died. Mom died, and I got the family fucking gene, and this is how both of you choose to repay me? It’s just….never mind. Doesn’t matter. Goodbye, dad.” Fuck! Son of a bitch! I just wanna pound my fist against the wall over and over again, and after that just cry. Man, Shaun just knows right when to hug me. “What happened?” “Well, he called me a fairy and a faggot. We both started yelling, then I said something about how much I gave for him and Jeanne, then I just said goodbye and hung up.” “Wow, you sure do have a flair for the dramatic.” I know he’s joking, but it hurts a little. ”Hey, Zach I’m kidding. Kidding. Well, don’t worry about it anymore. It’s over now. It’s gonna be okay, babe. You and I know it.” I love when he hugs me, and I can feel his chest rise and fall. Even though I’m beyond pissed at my dad right now, Shaun’s just making me feel so warm, safe, and most of all loved.
School:
I just can’t get over how awesome school is. I mean, seriously awesome. I actually feel like I’m learning stuff, you know. I wasn’t ever bad at anything in school, but it was so hard to make shit like Geometry interesting. And since when have I ever used anything I learned in Geometry anyway? Whatever, I’m learning stuff that I actually have an interest in, which makes it awesome. And not to gloat, but I’m good. Hell, the professors think so, Shaun thinks so, my friends think so, so it must be so, you know. Ha, a little rhyme. Seriously, with all that’s going good for me, sometimes I swear my life is like a fairy tale. Except with two princes, and some majorly hot man sex, but other than that, a fairy tale. Damn, my happy thoughts sure are cheesy.
Kid-Friendly Movie Night:
Shaun’s forcing us to watch “Hairspray” again. Okay, Cody picked it out, but Shaun encouraged it. I wanted to watch “Star Wars” but nnnoooooo. Now Shaun’s gonna keep telling me he’s just as awesome as Corny Collins. I swear, he’s so fucking weird. But he’s hotter than Corny Collins, so it’s okay. Oh and he’ll be dancing. Because he’s got “the moves.” The only part of “the moves” that’s not embarrassing is when he wiggles his butt. But that’s grown-up territory. One of these days I’m gonna make Cody watch some of my favorite movies from my childhood. “Star Wars” and “The Wizard Of Oz” come to mind.
Mother’s Day:
Today was mother’s day. We called Jeanne to check on her. I really hate talking to her, but at the same time, I don’t want Cody to lose contact with his mother completely. I really would like to have Cody live with us permanently, but I wouldn’t even begin to know how to bring that up with Jeanne. Seriosuly, how would I even go about doing that? It saddens me to think that I might be one of those guys who’s completely cut-off from his biological family just because he’s gay. But every time I tell a family member about Shaun and I, they get angry. Shaun always comforts me afterwards, but I will often sneak into the bathroom late at night and cry a little bit. I love Shaun, I love him more than anything, but it hurts so much that family, who’s supposed to love you no matter what, would turn their backs on you for being who you are. It’s like I don’t even matter to them. God, toughen up Zach. Seriously, forget about those assholes. You have Shaun who you love and who loves you dearly, Cody loves you, Gabe loves you, and Tori loves you. That’s more than enough. Now stop thinking like that, and crawl back into that bed next to your gorgeous man.
The Letter:
I can’t believe I’m writing my mother a letter. Man, this seems kinda weird. But, I’ve heard it’s therapeutic, so what could it hurt? I wish my mom were here, she was so amazing. And she liked Shaun. She liked him a lot. I remember her telling me that she’d love me no matter what. She also said I could talk to her about anything. Another thing that really sticks out is that she always figured Shaun was gay. Just by the way he was, his demeanor, you know. He was just so sweet, and just a little different from the other boys. Then she told me that if I was gay, that’d be great as long as I was happy. How the hell did she know before I knew? I guess it is true. Mothers always know. At least I know she would have approved of my boyfriend. God, boyfriend. Sounds like we’re in fucking high school. I’ll think about that later. I love you, mom. I miss you.
Father’s Day:
Today is father’s day. Shaun and I weren’t quite sure what to do about today. I mean, are we both Cody’s dads? Just me? Neither one of us? I honestly hadn’t thought about it too much. Well, we decided to celebrate it jointly. It was pretty cool, just more of a symbolic celebration. Cody did make cards that he was so proud of. Cody also picked out what we had for dinner, although I think chocolate chip pancakes were more what Cody actually wanted than anything else, but it was awesome nonetheless. This is definitely the best father’s day I’ve ever had.
Proposition 8:
Even if I wanted to, now I can’t. That just pisses me off so much. I don’t even have the option to….never mind, it doesn’t make one fucking bit of difference anyway now. Oh, and I never knew I could punch a hole in a wall. That fucking hurt. Just calm down, Zach. Don’t let a bunch of bigoted assholes ruin your life. Shaun’s trying to hide it, but I can see he’s crying. Now I feel bad. Huh, I’ve never been the one to do the comforting. This is weird. “Shaun, it’ll be okay.” Then I kiss his forehead. “Yeah, I know. I’m sorry. It just would have been nice, you know. But, shit happens. Sorry, I didn’t mean to get emotional.” “Shaun, you’re allowed to get emotional. Believe me, it’s okay. Hey, I just punched a hole into a wall. Emotions make you human.” “Student’s starting to sound like master.” “Well, master has really rubbed off on student.” Wow, I made a joke. About a million things are running through my mind right now. One thing is disappointment. I’d never even thought of the word marriage until now. It never even occurred to me. Now that we can’t, it’s something I want. Why didn’t I think of this sooner? Seriously?!
You Sure?:
“Married? Dude, seriously? Aren’t only chicks into that?” I love Gabe to pieces, but sometimes he can be a little much. “Gabe, I’m serious.” “I just never saw you as the marrying kind, I guess. Although, you’re all domestic now, so this kind makes sense. So, finding out you’re a homo really put things into perspective, huh?” “Fuck off, rich fuck.” “Hey, fuck you, ghetto trash.” We’re laughing like we’re fucking insane. “So are you gonna get down on one knee or some shit like that? And what about the ring? Is it gonna be a diamond?” “Hell no. I was thinking of getting one in the shape of a giant penis.” Gabe’s look right now is priceless. Fucking priceless. “Dude, that image is fucking disturbing. You are one sick fuck, you know that? Sick, sick, sick!” “Well, you fucking asked for it.” “You sure about this? I mean, this is really what you want to do, right. Because if it is, I couldn’t be happier for you, man. Seriously, my two brothers marrying each other makes me wanna burst with fucking happiness. I love you guys, so much man. And, after all the fucking shit you both have gone through, you guys deserve to be happy.” I think I wanna cry! Oh yeah, real manly, Zach. “Oh yeah, Gabe, I’m completely sure. Thanks, man.” Our hug was completely manly. It felt awesome to have Gabe’s approval. No wonder he’s my best friend.
Definitely Sure:
I know I wanna marry Shaun. I mean, I definitely know I wanna marry him. He’s done everything for me, and makes me feel things I never thought I could feel. Even the little things he does amaze me. Like when he offers to pick Cody up from school when I have tons of homework, or when he stops by campus to have lunch with me, or when he snuggles up against me when we watch TV. Little things like that, you know. He saved me as well, which is something I’ll remember for as long as I live. “Whatcha thinking about, babe?” “Nothing, just counting the ways I love you.” “Sounds interesting. I can do that, too, babe. I can think of one way…” I love it when Shaun kisses me. It feels so soft, so wonderful, and so perfect. Honestly, lying in bed glistening from the afterglow of our lovemaking is my favorite part. I love touching him, and I love when he touches me. “I love you, you know. I should say it more, but I really do love you.” “Zach, you show me every second you love me. You can’t hide it at all. I love you too. More than you’ll ever know.” There are some things in life that I can never be entirely sure of, but my love for Shaun and his love for me is definitely not one of them. I’m also sure of one more thing. I definitely want to marry him.
Author: jrb1986
Rating: R (Strong language)
Pairing/Characters: Zach/Shaun, Gabe, Cody, Zach’s Father. Jeannie and Tori are mentioned briefly.
Notes/Warnings: This story takes place about a year and a half after the film, but before my fics “Sick & Tired (Part I),” “The Proposal (Part II),” “The Commitment (Part III),” and “Surprise.” This is a slice of life fic, about Zach and Shaun’s life together. I also wrote this in first-person, like my previous fic “What I Want” to show how much of a difference has happened to Zach after the events of the film. There’s some angst here (Zach comes out to his dad, and Prop 8 happens.) But, there’s also lots of Zach/Shaun loving going on here too. Feedback rocks my world. J I unfortunately don’t own “Shelter,” nor Zach & Shaun (although I really wish I could. I love those boys!), nor Gabe, nor Cody. I’m just borrowing them for awhile, and I promise to return them good as new. Enjoy!
Happy:
Sometimes I can’t believe it. Hell, I even pinch myself occasionally just to check. If I had known that morning when I was just going to wax my surfboard that my entire life would change, I would have been more prepared for what was about to happen. But knowing me, I probably would have been too scared to go after it. Am I being philosophical now or some shit? Jesus, love does crazy things to me. Whatever, it’s cool. Lately whenever I make an intelligent observation about something, Shaun just looks and smiles at me, then kisses my forehead. “Kissing my big beautiful brain” he calls it when he does that. God, I love that man.
Daily Routine:
On today’s checklist, let’s see. Cody has to be dropped off at school, I then have to go to class, pick-up Cody from school, and come home. Nothing out of the ordinary. Shaun’ll be home all day writing his book which he won’t let me read yet. That’s okay, I’m overly protective about my artwork, so it’s cool. What would be good for dinner tonight? Cody’ll wanna stop by McDonald’s like he does everyday. I hate telling him no, but he can’t live on McDonald’s everyday. Shaun and I limit him going there to once a month, which I think is fair. Maybe Mac and cheese will be okay. Cody likes that. I’ll think about that later.
Humming:
I notice that I seem to be humming a lot more lately. I never really used to hum before. Guess that means I’m happy. Well, everybody knows I’m happy. It’s not like it’s a secret. God, I’m even humming while scrubbing the fucking toilet! I’m sure the schmaltz police will be coming for me soon.
Gabe:
I met up with Gabe today. That went pretty well. I’ve really missed Gabe a lot these last few months. It’s still a bit odd to hang out with him sometimes. He says he’s thrilled and happy for me and Shaun, but part of me thinks he still finds it a little bit weird. Maybe I’m just projecting that onto him. That’s really not fair of me to do. He says he’s thrilled, so I’ll take that at face value. Besides, he did go right back to talking about how much pussy he’s gonna get this weekend, so I think we’re cool. He only acts vulgar when everything’s cool.
Movie Night:
Tonight was pretty great. We watched that movie “Latter Days.” I loved that too. I really liked the mushy romance of it. Jesus, normally I hate romance movies. Maybe I could relate to it more or something? Makes sense. Or maybe it had a lot to do with Shaun sitting there holding me. That’s a high possibility. Makes me remember when we watched “Brokeback Mountain” for the first time together. I do like that “Latter Days” didn’t have a tragic ending, however. I wish they’d make more gay movies like that. One about gay surfers would be way cool. Anyway, after the movie rocked too. One of those fantastic nights where we fucked each other’s brains out and loved every second of it.
Zach Comes Out To His Dad:
“Shaun, it’s just something I feel I really should do.” “Okay, Zach. Knowing your dad though, it’s gonna be rough. But I’ll be right there in the next room if you need support, okay babe.” I’ve decided to tell my dad about Shaun and I today. God, why the fuck did I put this off for so long?! I can barely dial the phone, my hands are shaking so badly. “Hello?” Shit, he sounds pissed already. “Dad? Hi, it’s Zach.” “What? Do you want something?” Nice guy, he can be such a jerk sometimes. “Yeah, how’s everything going, dad? You doing okay?” “Fine Zach. What did you really call me for?” Here we go. “Dad, I have something I really wanna tell you. You know how I moved here to Los Angeles with Shaun, right. Well, it wasn’t just to be roommates. Shaun and I are……..” Say it already Zach! It’ll be okay, just spit it out! “We’re dating, Dad.” “What?! Are you telling me you’re a fag?! Is that what you’re telling me?!” “I prefer to be called gay, dad. Well, I prefer to be called Zach, dad. But yeah, that’s what I’m telling you. I’m in love with Shaun, dad, and yeah, I’m gay.” “How the fuck are two fucking fairies gonna raise my grandson? Tell me that.” “You know what, dad. Us two quote-on-quote “fairies” are gonna do a hell of a better job than Jeanne ever did. You and I both know that.” “But the kids gonna turn into a faggot too. You’re being selfish, you know.” “Excuse me?! I’M being selfish?! Even if Cody does turn out to be gay one day, at least he’ll live in a house where he’ll be loved for who he is no matter what. Wish I could say the same.” “What is that supposed to mean? I mean, you slam me with this, and you expect me to like it?!” “You don’t have to like it dad, but I expect you to respect it. Because, I gave and gave and gave and gave to you and Jeanne when mom died. Mom died, and I got the family fucking gene, and this is how both of you choose to repay me? It’s just….never mind. Doesn’t matter. Goodbye, dad.” Fuck! Son of a bitch! I just wanna pound my fist against the wall over and over again, and after that just cry. Man, Shaun just knows right when to hug me. “What happened?” “Well, he called me a fairy and a faggot. We both started yelling, then I said something about how much I gave for him and Jeanne, then I just said goodbye and hung up.” “Wow, you sure do have a flair for the dramatic.” I know he’s joking, but it hurts a little. ”Hey, Zach I’m kidding. Kidding. Well, don’t worry about it anymore. It’s over now. It’s gonna be okay, babe. You and I know it.” I love when he hugs me, and I can feel his chest rise and fall. Even though I’m beyond pissed at my dad right now, Shaun’s just making me feel so warm, safe, and most of all loved.
School:
I just can’t get over how awesome school is. I mean, seriously awesome. I actually feel like I’m learning stuff, you know. I wasn’t ever bad at anything in school, but it was so hard to make shit like Geometry interesting. And since when have I ever used anything I learned in Geometry anyway? Whatever, I’m learning stuff that I actually have an interest in, which makes it awesome. And not to gloat, but I’m good. Hell, the professors think so, Shaun thinks so, my friends think so, so it must be so, you know. Ha, a little rhyme. Seriously, with all that’s going good for me, sometimes I swear my life is like a fairy tale. Except with two princes, and some majorly hot man sex, but other than that, a fairy tale. Damn, my happy thoughts sure are cheesy.
Kid-Friendly Movie Night:
Shaun’s forcing us to watch “Hairspray” again. Okay, Cody picked it out, but Shaun encouraged it. I wanted to watch “Star Wars” but nnnoooooo. Now Shaun’s gonna keep telling me he’s just as awesome as Corny Collins. I swear, he’s so fucking weird. But he’s hotter than Corny Collins, so it’s okay. Oh and he’ll be dancing. Because he’s got “the moves.” The only part of “the moves” that’s not embarrassing is when he wiggles his butt. But that’s grown-up territory. One of these days I’m gonna make Cody watch some of my favorite movies from my childhood. “Star Wars” and “The Wizard Of Oz” come to mind.
Mother’s Day:
Today was mother’s day. We called Jeanne to check on her. I really hate talking to her, but at the same time, I don’t want Cody to lose contact with his mother completely. I really would like to have Cody live with us permanently, but I wouldn’t even begin to know how to bring that up with Jeanne. Seriosuly, how would I even go about doing that? It saddens me to think that I might be one of those guys who’s completely cut-off from his biological family just because he’s gay. But every time I tell a family member about Shaun and I, they get angry. Shaun always comforts me afterwards, but I will often sneak into the bathroom late at night and cry a little bit. I love Shaun, I love him more than anything, but it hurts so much that family, who’s supposed to love you no matter what, would turn their backs on you for being who you are. It’s like I don’t even matter to them. God, toughen up Zach. Seriously, forget about those assholes. You have Shaun who you love and who loves you dearly, Cody loves you, Gabe loves you, and Tori loves you. That’s more than enough. Now stop thinking like that, and crawl back into that bed next to your gorgeous man.
The Letter:
I can’t believe I’m writing my mother a letter. Man, this seems kinda weird. But, I’ve heard it’s therapeutic, so what could it hurt? I wish my mom were here, she was so amazing. And she liked Shaun. She liked him a lot. I remember her telling me that she’d love me no matter what. She also said I could talk to her about anything. Another thing that really sticks out is that she always figured Shaun was gay. Just by the way he was, his demeanor, you know. He was just so sweet, and just a little different from the other boys. Then she told me that if I was gay, that’d be great as long as I was happy. How the hell did she know before I knew? I guess it is true. Mothers always know. At least I know she would have approved of my boyfriend. God, boyfriend. Sounds like we’re in fucking high school. I’ll think about that later. I love you, mom. I miss you.
Father’s Day:
Today is father’s day. Shaun and I weren’t quite sure what to do about today. I mean, are we both Cody’s dads? Just me? Neither one of us? I honestly hadn’t thought about it too much. Well, we decided to celebrate it jointly. It was pretty cool, just more of a symbolic celebration. Cody did make cards that he was so proud of. Cody also picked out what we had for dinner, although I think chocolate chip pancakes were more what Cody actually wanted than anything else, but it was awesome nonetheless. This is definitely the best father’s day I’ve ever had.
Proposition 8:
Even if I wanted to, now I can’t. That just pisses me off so much. I don’t even have the option to….never mind, it doesn’t make one fucking bit of difference anyway now. Oh, and I never knew I could punch a hole in a wall. That fucking hurt. Just calm down, Zach. Don’t let a bunch of bigoted assholes ruin your life. Shaun’s trying to hide it, but I can see he’s crying. Now I feel bad. Huh, I’ve never been the one to do the comforting. This is weird. “Shaun, it’ll be okay.” Then I kiss his forehead. “Yeah, I know. I’m sorry. It just would have been nice, you know. But, shit happens. Sorry, I didn’t mean to get emotional.” “Shaun, you’re allowed to get emotional. Believe me, it’s okay. Hey, I just punched a hole into a wall. Emotions make you human.” “Student’s starting to sound like master.” “Well, master has really rubbed off on student.” Wow, I made a joke. About a million things are running through my mind right now. One thing is disappointment. I’d never even thought of the word marriage until now. It never even occurred to me. Now that we can’t, it’s something I want. Why didn’t I think of this sooner? Seriously?!
You Sure?:
“Married? Dude, seriously? Aren’t only chicks into that?” I love Gabe to pieces, but sometimes he can be a little much. “Gabe, I’m serious.” “I just never saw you as the marrying kind, I guess. Although, you’re all domestic now, so this kind makes sense. So, finding out you’re a homo really put things into perspective, huh?” “Fuck off, rich fuck.” “Hey, fuck you, ghetto trash.” We’re laughing like we’re fucking insane. “So are you gonna get down on one knee or some shit like that? And what about the ring? Is it gonna be a diamond?” “Hell no. I was thinking of getting one in the shape of a giant penis.” Gabe’s look right now is priceless. Fucking priceless. “Dude, that image is fucking disturbing. You are one sick fuck, you know that? Sick, sick, sick!” “Well, you fucking asked for it.” “You sure about this? I mean, this is really what you want to do, right. Because if it is, I couldn’t be happier for you, man. Seriously, my two brothers marrying each other makes me wanna burst with fucking happiness. I love you guys, so much man. And, after all the fucking shit you both have gone through, you guys deserve to be happy.” I think I wanna cry! Oh yeah, real manly, Zach. “Oh yeah, Gabe, I’m completely sure. Thanks, man.” Our hug was completely manly. It felt awesome to have Gabe’s approval. No wonder he’s my best friend.
Definitely Sure:
I know I wanna marry Shaun. I mean, I definitely know I wanna marry him. He’s done everything for me, and makes me feel things I never thought I could feel. Even the little things he does amaze me. Like when he offers to pick Cody up from school when I have tons of homework, or when he stops by campus to have lunch with me, or when he snuggles up against me when we watch TV. Little things like that, you know. He saved me as well, which is something I’ll remember for as long as I live. “Whatcha thinking about, babe?” “Nothing, just counting the ways I love you.” “Sounds interesting. I can do that, too, babe. I can think of one way…” I love it when Shaun kisses me. It feels so soft, so wonderful, and so perfect. Honestly, lying in bed glistening from the afterglow of our lovemaking is my favorite part. I love touching him, and I love when he touches me. “I love you, you know. I should say it more, but I really do love you.” “Zach, you show me every second you love me. You can’t hide it at all. I love you too. More than you’ll ever know.” There are some things in life that I can never be entirely sure of, but my love for Shaun and his love for me is definitely not one of them. I’m also sure of one more thing. I definitely want to marry him.
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Date: 2010-05-11 12:26 am (UTC)Ok: 1x a month only for fast food!? ;(
i too over analyze thinking and thinking usually the worst LOL.
'shaun holdn me' LOVED THAT!
'gay surfer movie" Iwish there was a sequel.
crawl into bed w/that gorgeous man. Holla!
boyfriend: what should they call eachother?????
Gabe saying:"my brothers marrying" creeped me out for a second.LOL!
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